Dealing with pain: do you want to be healed?
Updated: Apr 18, 2019
Scripture I read: John 4-5: 6
SOAP Method: S: "Unless you see signs and wonders, you will not believe." John 4:48 ESV "When Jesus saw him lying there and knew he had already been there for a long time, he said to him "do you want to be healed?". John 5:6 ESV
O: Jesus said to the father in the first verse whose son was dying that he wouldn't believe unless he saw Jesus heal him. He wouldn't believe unless it was a show or a miraculous miracle like he had heard about Jesus doing from other people. When instead of performing a miracle or a large scene, Jesus simply just spoke. From far away, he spoke, and the boy lived. I think Jesus knew the man didn't have strong faith. The man didn't go to him in humility and belief that if Jesus wanted to heal the boy from where he stood, probably hundreds of miles away, he could. Instead, he said come, show me, let me see it with my own eyes.
In the second verse, Jesus wasn't asking the man who was an invalid for 38 years if he wanted to be made well because he didn't think the man longed for that in his heart. He asked the man because he wanted to see where his hope was. The mans answer was not one of lost hope, but of lost resources. “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.” John 5:7 He had no one to help him into the pool, but Jesus didn't even need to put him into the pool to declare healing. He simply....spoke. This man watched for 38 years while everyone else got the healing he desperately wanted. He fought for it. He tried to make his way there, crawling, begging, anything that he could do to just reach the thing that he had put his hope in.
Why did Jesus chose this man? --> Maybe Jesus saw the man trying to make it to the pool. Maybe he saw the man and the hope in his eyes and the dedication from the sweat on his forehead. Jesus knew he was a fighter.
A: I want healing. But I want to want Jesus more than I want healing. In every book of Matthew, mark, Luke, and John, there are stories of miracles of healing. God has no shortage of power. But do I need a miracle to know I'm healed? Do I need to be able to see the healing with my own eyes to live as if I already am? Is He good even if I can't see it?
I AM healed. My body may not give evidence of it yet. But the hope of Jesus is stronger than any pain. And if my hope is stronger than my pain, I can live in the freedom from it. Not enduring it, embracing it.
P: Lord, I don't need to see to believe you are healing me. My hope is strong and it is laced into Your Word. I will not fear, doubt, or become overwhelmed while I wait to see the fruit of this healing. My hope is in you. Jesus I want to be healed, I do, but there is always purpose in my pain. And if that means that I will live my life with the blessing of not having this impediment removed, then all the while I will live in thankfulness for how it has brought me closer to you. Your Word says that you withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. Your Word says that for those who are in your care, not one of their bones will be broken. You are not slow to fulfill your promises. Make my timing your timing and my will your will. I will wait for you Lord. I will wait, hope, and be a warrior for Your Word.